Winterspell

by thiagochackal @ deviantART.com

No dream recall, although that's fine because the one from yesterday morning was enough to fuel me for a few days. Lol. 

I guess I'll first address the Connecticut incident, although I won't say much because it's been all over the web. Yes, it's a tragedy. But I'm not surprised. I had a feeling that crap like this would go down. Maybe it's related to the energies littering this planet right now. I recall reading something many months ago that suggested people would be severely affected by the movement in 2012 - the whole end of the world thing, etc. Many would commit suicide, feel desperate, feel fearful, and would do reckless things. However, despite all that, this doesn't take away from the fact that America's gun laws are crap. I won't pretend to know anything about our gun laws, but in my head, the formula seems quite simple: don't let people have guns. I came across this statistic poster on tumblr yesterday that compared all the annual deaths by various countries, and while every other country had something like between 20-50, the U.S. had over 10,000. 

Sigh. 

That aside, though, I received a reading from yet another person yesterday that basically opened my eyes a bit more. It's funny, because I didn't tell her I had a specific question - I merely said I had trouble choosing a certain path. Now, in my head, I was thinking about the free will/no free will path. But I wanted to see what came through... and guess what? She gave me a career-based answer, and told me to follow my heart. At the same time, though, she said a male guide stepped up and added, "The path is there for the choosing," and somehow, that stood out to me as being a reply to my original question. Haha. 

It did have me thinking back to career. The other day, my dad asked me if I was looking forward to my next quarter. I actually didn't know how to respond, because I didn't want to disappoint him and say no. But he said, "I'm not looking forward to mine," so with a bit of relief, I told him I hadn't really been thinking about it - that I'm trying not to think about it.

Yeah, I'm not looking forward to school. However, I realize that I need to incorporate this new perspective when January comes around. I have to remember that I'm there to assist myself on my path, not the one that my parents think I'm following. I have to remember to enjoy the process... to be aware of any stresses, but not to attach to them. And to be honest, next quarter's schedule isn't so bad. Yeah, I'm there for 8 hours in back-to-back classes, and I come home at 8 PM in the dark and cold, but I only have to make the drive twice a week (and during times with no traffic). Two-day weeks always seem to go by quicker, too. 

In other news, I'm getting really serious about turning Zenoheria's life into a novel. I have a general idea of the plot that involves him and Zyler (although I'm deciding to rename him to Elyssian because of all the Zs) and their travels/adventures around Eron and its kingdoms. I went back to the Burrow on SF and dug up all the information I had acquired in my dreams/meditations and jotted it all down. I still have to come up with some kind of conflict, though. 

I'm a little nervous that something like this has already been done. Because when I think about it, it doesn't seem all that original. I'm sure there are hundreds of ice mage fantasy stories out there... involving dragons. I suppose I just need to be confident about my work and trust that the proper information/inspiration will come through. If it's meant to happen, it will.

With that in mind, I've already been doing a lot of mental plot-working. I even began finding wintery-themed tunes for inspiration (mainly Two Steps From Hell - their new album Skyworld has several of them that I really dig... might have to buy that album). So yeah. I'm really excited about this. Back when I was involved in Zeno's story, I only casually mentioned that it would make a good novel, but now, I really feel passionate about the idea. And because I'm passionate and serious about it, I'm probably going to refrain from mentioning much more about Zeno and his story... for the sake of creative copyright. 

I'll leave with TSFH's "Winterspell," which I feel is a very appropriate and fitting song for Zeno's story and character (I envision some kind of opening scene to this theme, haha):