"I'm hesitant, though, because I'm always seeing wolves on tumblr and deviantART.. so unless they come in abundance, or another symbol pops up, I won't accept the "return" of Spike."
Yeah. The whole wolf thing kind of blew up in my face today. And you know something else? MOONS. I've been seeing moons all over the place. I just didn't realize it at first because I'd been thinking of animal symbolism. (The moon is my primary symbol for Spike/Shiva.)
I don't know why I was fixated more on wolves than the moon... I guess because I had been getting all the dragon/big cat references (still going on today)...
But this says something. The fact that I've been receiving wolf and moon symbolism suggests to me that Spike deliberately wants to emphasize the Spike energy - not the Shiva energy. It seems he only likes to introduce the Shiva energy whenever there's something in my life that needs to be dissolved. So very interesting indeed...
(I also pulled a BoS card asking once and for all: "Is the Spike energy back?" and received Lakshmi, who not only is associated with prosperity, gifts, and emotional stability, but who is humorously associated with the Hindu pantheon. Lol. Nice.)
I did remember a portion of my dream this morning which I wrote down in my private blog. It was an interesting mix of things I've been thinking about: the Geminid meteor shower (which is tonight!), ice cream, and chests of gold (I can thank the goblin episode of Merlin from yesterday for that). There wasn't much I could dissect from this dream, though. Hmm.
In the end, I didn't join the global meditation last night. I realized it would be pointless, because it started 10 minutes before my dad got home, and I knew I would be interrupted. Originally, I decided I would do my own crystal chakra healing session before bed, but dropped that, too, because I felt too lazy. I'll probably do something like that for 12/21, though.
I'm probably going to start that SS gift today. It'd probably be a good time to do so, since in 10 days we can begin posting our gifts on dA. I still have to decide what I'm going to do about my brother, because I have no desire to draw his car. I was thinking about something edible, but my mom apparently spent over $100 at World Market on the two of us, so I think he's set for edible things. My brother's kind of hard to buy for because there's not much he wants/needs, and those things are usually expensive... which is why I usually resort to art. But what happens when I have absolutely no desire to draw?
Pah. This sucks. It does bring me to my next topic though: art. Been thinking a lot about art lately... especially yesterday, when I was browsing through tarot decks again (bad idea, I know... at least I didn't find anything good). Browsing through those tarot decks made me realize how few decent tarots there are for me. I have some pretty specific needs/desires when it comes to my cards. I'm sure it's the same for everyone - but I've seen people who have large collections of decks, and it makes me wonder if they actually resonate with them all, or if they only use a few and keep the others as art cards.
Long story short, I thought about how many kinds of decks I would create that would resonate with me and my needs, and I realized: that could be a good profit. Of course, I had thought about this before, but not as seriously. It was only yesterday when I really decided this would be something that would not only satisfy my need for good cards, but also help me support myself.
However, I would need to do a lot of drawing. Fortunately, they wouldn't have to be fabulous, because I've seen some pretty hideous published decks out there, and even some that aren't as focused on technical skill. I feel like I'd be good at incorporating symbolism or a sense of story with these cards, so that people could resonate with them.
So guess what I did? I sat down yesterday in front of Merlin and began jotting down ideas. I grabbed my self-made Cosmic Oracle deck and made a list of all the cards, and then thought about other possibilities. Somehow, I feel really good about this... it reminds me of a medium I'm friends with on FB; she told me that my intuitive paintings (the first batch of intuitive art I ever did) would make good oracle cards. I thought: "Huh! That's not a bad idea!"
I'm going to elaborate on that spiel from last night later... going to get some things done first.
*Edit: As in confirmation, I stumble upon a crescent moon on my dash. Pffft.
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