12/12/12: Return of the Lion

Only remembered a portion of my dream, but in it, I was telling my best friend about the dream I had had about her the day before (yes, the actual dream I had yesterday morning featured her...). I never knew what it meant to be telling someone about your dream... in your dream. 

I once again reiterated last night that I'm expecting "signs" on whether the boys have returned. And guess what? Today's all about the big cats. Lol. I only saw one dragon reference, but a couple of tigers, as well, a snow leopard, and three lions.

Now, my dash always has tigers on it. The people I follow love tigers. But I rarely see lions. It's clear to me, though, that the emphasis is on big cats, which is what Leon always bombarded me with when his energy was active. 

I've also been seeing wolves, which I associated with Spike (pre-Shiva). I'm hesitant, though, because I'm always seeing wolves on tumblr and deviantART.. so unless they come in abundance, or another symbol pops up, I won't accept the "return" of Spike. 

I was thinking in bed again last night like I always do, because I have some conflicted energy on what to believe. Okay, so the boys are returning... what do I do with them? Do I still need that guidance? Or do I just have them around as friends? In my opinion, they're no different from people. They were created for a purpose. Their energy isn't invalidated just because I choose not to believe in them the same way for a while. 

Plus, in a half-medi state yesterday, I had a little mini-vision that I wasn't expecting to see. I was originally picturing myself in a blank space with dragon-Pierre, just for old time's sake, but suddenly, that image of dragon-Pierre became human-Pierre, and the next thing I knew, human-Pierre yanked me into this tight embrace, and "I missed you" popped into my head. 

It brought me back to that one day back in late summer when I was dozing on my bed (lovely lady cramps), half-asleep, when a voice said in my head: "I never had the chance to tell you I love you." It had caught me completely off guard (that seems to happen a lot these days). So yes - I would've shrugged off yesterday's moment as just "imaginative" or "subconscious," but if I've learned anything over these past few months, that in itself is a load of BS. I won't dwell on it like a dewy-eyed schoolgirl, but I won't shrug it off, either.

All that aside, though... I didn't start on that SS gift yesterday, because I didn't anticipate spending four hours in the kitchen with my mom making vegetable stew and applesauce (oh man, that's tasty stuff). It was during this time that we also decided to start buying cat food for a stray who has developed an interest in us. The funny thing? It looks like a little lion - very fluffy, with a kind of "mane." So naturally, I named it Leon/Leona (we don't know gender). My mom just calls it Green-Eyes... pfft.

I have mixed feelings about keeping a cat. I would love one if I had the money to be able to take care of it, but at the same time, I think of all the "nasty" stuff about keeping one... like if it throws up, or has diarrhea, or destroys something, or has worms/illness... etc. And that immediately turns me off. 

But I digress.

I'm not sure what all I'm going to do today. I know I need to do a couple readings. I also know I probably won't be interested in doing that SS gift. Maybe I'll start that new draft of Crucible if I can find the words, or if it flows. I've had the beginning sorted out in my head for several days now... 

One last thought... this came to me when I was thinking about that Pierre moment up there. It really doesn't matter what you believe. I mean, I always knew that, but at the back of my head. It was only then I really immersed myself in that realization. All the pieces clicked, so to speak. Whatever empowers you, whatever makes you happy... whatever allows you to get the most out of life. If that means you believe you're a fairy from the Pleaides and your TF is an elf, then so be it. If that means your husband is an archangel and your father is Jesus, then so be it. If that means you believe you were once a powerful mage on a snow world, then so be it.

Hahaha. Yes. I was thinking about Zenoheria, too, because I was digging through my files yesterday and came across those channeled artworks from Eron. I realized: I can believe anything I want. Who cares if it's "written in the stars"? As far as I'm concerned, Zenoheria and I share a lot in common. Plus, he's good inspiration. So to hell with it - I'm claiming Zenoheria as "mine." 

(That is SO a novel-in-the-making. Maybe I should jump on that...)

Happy 12/12/12! 

*Edit: Today's Mythic Oracle draw was The Moirae, representing fate/destiny. Although humorous, I find that very significant for such a date, which focuses on creative energies...