Sleeping in Trees

by cathybluetuesday @ deviantART

Had an interesting dream this morning that I fully remembered until I heard my dad clunking around in the garage (he had to get up a bit earlier to take his poor car in for some work). Now, the only part I remember is sleeping in a tree. The first time, I was by myself on this lean little branch, but I fell off. The second time, I was on this really wide branch with Ruby (season 4 +) from Supernatural and some other person I can't remember. We even had like a bed set up there, with blankets and I think pillows. We were also tethered to the trunk so that we wouldn't fall off.

So yeah. I'm not sure what sleeping in trees with a demon is supposed to mean. Lol.

This thought came to me last night when I was working on my Lucifer post for VotS. Lately I've been wondering about my sensitivity and why I've rarely perceived anything externally. Like I said before, I've never seen a ghost, I've never seen any deceased relatives at the foot of my bed, I've never seen orbs with my physical eyes, I've never heard the deceased trying to speak to me, I've never gotten the goosebumps from sensing a spirit in the room, and so on. It brought me to wonder, then, about the whole "checkpoint" theory - where our lives are loosely organized "beforehand." I wouldn't necessarily call it "fate" or "destiny," but something more like purpose or guidelines. Kind of like if you were playing an RPG. You select a character who technically already has a background story, but you still add on to that story by going through the game. 

What if the same thing applies to beliefs? And by that, I mean, what if it's pre-programmed? Is that what some people mean by coming full circle? I just... I look at my path, and even though I can connect to aspects of spirit through intention, they rarely approach me first. So in other words, since I never experienced the separation of spirit in my youth (like seeing ghosts and whatnot), did that basically suggest that I would never have the need to experience it because separation wouldn't resonate or apply to me later on?

I mean, there was a short period of time (a couple years) where I did resonate with it, only because that's how I was taught. I was new to spirituality and assumed it was absolute because of all the "general" information people passed around. But that was only 2-3 years. Some people live their whole lives immersed in separation of spirit. That's why I once again use the example of most - if not all - mediums, who have had some kind of encounter with a ghost or spirit in their younger years that paved the way for the rest of their lives. Because they experienced it in childhood, those experiences were basically outlining a pre-programmed path or truth. 

So with me, I mean... the only two "spiritual" experiences I can note from my childhood are 1.) my ability to astral project and 2.) having a voice in my head warn me about my brother, who was about to scare me. At the time, though, I didn't associate the latter with a spirit. I just thought that's how psychic ability worked. And astral projection... well, I suppose technically that implies separation of spirit, but not in the way that includes seeing ghosts and whatnot. Then again, I haven't experienced AP since then, so I'm not really familiar with the process and what one comes across in such a state. 

It just makes me wonder. I've been sitting here wondering if I'll ever see these things, and this thought drops into my head, as if saying "you're never meant to." I don't need to believe in separation to be able to do my spiritual work for others, because the aura contains all information about the sitter that I need to know, and it will tell me whether the sitter has "guides" around them. So it's not like I NEED to be able to see such things physically.

Does that really mean I came into this life programmed to never believe in separation? It kind of makes sense to me. I mean... I was listening to the story Vic was telling me about her "attack" and how an archangel came to help and how one of her guides was a guise for Raphael or something along those lines (her explanation lost me... haha), and I realize that Vic's life and experiences are based on her resonating with separation. I think from childhood, she was able to see such things. 

But Lulu doesn't fit into that, unless there's something she's not telling me. I believe she has had such encounters as a child, but at the same time, she still DOES to this day. However, she claims to resonate with the same idea of separation as I do. So how does that work with her? 

And Warrior. I remember him telling me/us that he was once an atheist. I don't know if this applies to his whole life; I mean, I think most children are completely open to spirit, so I'd be curious to see what his childhood was like. Today, he focuses on not only the separation of spirit, but the existence of demons, as well. 

It's a really strange but somehow resonant thought. I would be interested in hearing the stories of many different types of people on their paths just to see how accurate this is. Well, I say accurate, but I mean accurate for me. Haha. 

When I think about it, pre-programming makes sense, because if we're infinite consciousness/creative energy, and we all went into life with absolutely no direction, purpose, or guidelines, then we wouldn't have a drive for things that create certain scenarios to experience. Ooo. Adonai is encouraging this by dropping thoughts into my head... I think I might have to write a VotS post to let it elaborate. 

But food for thought: if I had seen such things as ghosts, etc., in my youth, my life would be COMPLETELY different.

(I so don't want to do homework... even if it's not that much.)

Evaah