With Help from the Planets

"The Cosmic Gate" - by acrylicdreams @ deviantART

As if all the other signs weren't enough, I just found out that the planets are also helping me, as well. I'm subscribed to the lovely Michele Knight on Youtube, so I keep up with my weekly/monthly Pisces astrology, and here's what Michele had to say:

First, for the week of October 8th:

"This is all about work and career. You have the opportunity to really dig deep and express your desires, and come up with a brilliant cunning plan on how you're going to achieve those career goals. There's a sort of magic and transformation, so if something drastic happens - even on the surface - it might appear a bit surprising, because Uranus, the planet of the unpredictable is involved... but this particular opportunity is going to be fabulous for you. It's going to show you what you're made of."

And then, for this upcoming week:

"You are opening up to seeing things on a whole new level, and it's making you feel quite powerful and strong. You're a bit like an alchemist - you can transform [your challenges] into something positive, and that is the magical gift this week is bringing you. ..There is also some passion connected to your career or your work, and you could feel a little bit confused on where to put your energy. However... you'll be guided in the right direction. ..You will experience more adventures, you'll experience more expansion, you'll be open to new ideas and new opportunities. You can never look back, because you're literally being reborn and re-energized this week."

Man, this only gives me more fuel to chase my heart's desires. I admit I had a moment of doubt earlier, where I thought: "What if I'm making a mistake, or what if this is only a 'phase'?" But when I inspected the latter idea, I realized that no, it's not a phase. I've always felt like this. I've always dreaded going to school, sitting through 2.5 hour classes, trying to force myself to network (which I haven't really done), and so on. And honestly, I can't see myself working as another artist in the big old film industry. It's just not "me." This face of mine is meant to work with greater things. It's supposed to make some kind of mark on the world, be it through creative work or helping inspire others. Actually, both. Just remember that life purpose reading Tri gave you:

1.) Books
2.) Flowers
3.) Spiritual Teacher
4.) Bodywork
5.) Support

That's basically EVERYTHING I want out of this life summed up in 5 cards (the 6th wasn't as relevant.) Then again, what did Tri say about the 6th card, "Talk to Your Angels"?

 "Your heart knows what it wants, and you must listen to it, regardless of whether others want to try and persuade you to do something else, or follow a more narrow path. This is YOUR path. And you need to be happy with it."

...Yup. I'm feeling far less mopey and much more assertive. Granted, I still don't know how I'm going to approach my parents about this. It's kind of a difficult subject to bring up, but I'm not going to sit here and ignore my heart's calling. I'm not going to sit here and waste my money - and my parent's money - on something I don't even want. I've already put them about $25k more in debt. And there's no way in hell I'm going to waste three and a half years of my life doing this crap when I won't even need it. I won't put myself through that stress. That exhaustion. That misery. I took my parents' advice, and it only made me unhappy.

Then again, I'm grateful for the year that I did spend at college. Why? Because without it, I wouldn't be where I am today. I wouldn't have realized how wrong this path is for me. I wouldn't have discovered my true nature when I did.

So my next step? I need to sit down with my parents and express my feelings to them. I'm not going to be a jerk about it, but I'm going to be assertive. I need to do this before the 24th, because that's when registration for winter quarter opens for me... 

The Anemoi sure didn't break their promise. Lol.

Finny x