A Cautious Step Forward

"The Gate" - by chvacher @ deviantART

Well, padre knows now. He also doesn't know the specifics, but just now he told me when he gets home from teaching, we're going to - pardon my French - "shoot the shit." 

I was nervous yesterday because my mom was the one who told him over dinner at our local pub, and when he came home, he seemed to ignore me until I went to tell them goodnight. But he told me he knows I'm responsible, etc., so he doesn't seem as irritated this morning. 

So that's another big step down. Now it's just a matter of explaining myself and working out the details of my decision. I think my dad will be in support if I emphasize the passion I have for this path. He really will put his all into helping you if he knows it's something you're passionate about. 

I need to start getting my ducks in a row. From here on out, I'll be a self-taught artist, so I need to practice, practice, practice, and find techniques that will deliver beautiful results to my clients. I'm very inspired by my spirit art idol, Lesley Crossingham (another Australian-based artist), who dishes out beautiful pastel work. I just worry that digital may not be something people would like, because when it comes to something personal like spirit art, you'd prefer to have something organic and tangible, right? I've received dozens of comments from sitters at SF who say they print out my digital portraits to hang on their walls, and I feel kind of bad that they can't have something beautiful and raw and tangible. 

I wonder if I should then offer both traditional and digital work. I was originally just going to do digital so I wouldn't have to worry about shipping... it would also mean lower prices (also because digital is quick). But I feel like it'd be impersonal. I've only seen one other artist who does digital work, and it's more like a "mixed media" thing, where she takes traditional pieces and applies digital textures and whatnot to them. 

You know what I would also love doing? Spirit sculptures. Specifically in clay/sculpey. How cool would it be to have a figurine of a guiding energy, or a relief that symbolized your path? I don't think that's ever been done. Maybe in a small handful of cases. But once I get comfortable with the medium, that's definitely something I want to do.

See? I have all these ideas building up in my head. I should start writing them down. 

In other news, I've decided to bring back my nightly meditations (which will probably help me fall asleep!). I'll take turns focusing on a certain subject... manifestation, developing my skills, chakra/aura clearing, etc. I'll work with my crystals, too. Last night I meditated with/as Shiva, which was nice to do again. 

Now I have to spend the day working on thumbnails for class because I had no motivation yesterday... lovely.

Finny x