10/11/12

"Chalice Well" - by Amanda Clark

I'm enjoying today - and not just for the date. Well... I always enjoy Thursdays - it's the last day before my weekend. And for once I don't have that much crap to do.

I have several things to take note of today, so I'll just try to jot them all down.

For starters, I received my new journal in the mail the other day. I can start filling it up with all sorts of spiritual goodness to help quench this thirst for other perspectives. It's a lot thicker than I anticipated too, which is good. I like journals with lots of pages. Makes them seem important.

Second, Lucifer has been popping up for me lately. I'm guessing he's symbolic for something - but I've always been drawn to him. Maybe because he's associated with light AND dark. It's along the same reasons why I'm drawn to Shiva, the Destroyer (who allows for new creation), Hades, and Apollo. So yeah. Might need to look into what he's supposed to represent at this time.

Third, I'm kinda excited for Saturday, because my it's my favorite spiritual shop's 25th anniversary, and they're going to have some events/activities going on, such as performances, drawings for free readings, door prizes, reflexology/chair massage, and a crystal show... not to mention coupons. I'm still debating whether I actually want to go, though, because I'd be by myself, and there's limited parking, it's kinda far, and overall... well. There's not THAT much to do. But it might be a good chance to throw my name out there, meet some lovely high-vibe people, and explore a little bit. Plus, I haven't been there since March, and I have a few things I'd like to buy. A 2013 calendar, some statuary...  (And how "coincidental" that I don't have much homework this weekend). Etc.

Fourth, I really need to figure out this whole intention thing. I had a garage fail today, and I wonder if it's because I wasn't as focused on it as I normally am. I really should start recording my results and how other factors affect them, because I'm really curious to see how truly powerful our intention is, and if it can overcome anything (like traffic. lol). 

Fifth, tying in to the above, I want to make a list of all the things I desire and start focusing on bringing them to reality. Because there are a lot of things I want, but just keep in the back of my mind - so I'm not really putting forth the creative energy to manifest them. I think I might do that this weekend, and then make it a habit to meditate on them until they're manifested. 

I'm down to 5 weeks of school left. I'm actually feeling a little tired of "school." I want to improve my skill, but now that I'm taking a minor, that'll be more stress and more money - stress meaning the pressure of having to complete projects on top of projects in between other homework, commute time, and so forth. I might even have to take an evening class next quarter, which I would really like to avoid... 

I just... I wish society was different. I don't like being a robot who goes to college just so I can get a good job to sustain myself for the rest of my life. I want a life where I can focus on nourishing myself and doing what I love. God. Why did we have to turn Earth into this? In a way, I kind of half-wish that some big old natural disaster would happen in December, just so we can live differently. I just want to live. I want to experience nature. I want to travel. I want to create art in a variety of forms. I want to nourish my body. 

The only thing I like about this century is the abundance of experiences available to us... which is probably why society is the way it is. 

Ugh. 

Finny x