An Off Day

by hoooook @ deviantART

Today was... interesting. 
It was clearly one of those "testing" days meant to throw you off track a little. Even if you're flying high, you can't expect to remain at that altitude forever. Gotta hit some turbulence every now and then... otherwise the flight ain't worth it.

My day started out a teensy bit rocky thanks to traffic. And what's even more eyeroll-worthy is that there really was no reason for there to be traffic. I never experience traffic on my route at my departure time (10 AM) unless there's road construction. There was no road construction. No accidents, nada. Just backup from something that wasn't identified on Google maps. 
So what normally is a 20-25 minute drive turned out to be an hour drive. Naturally, I was panicking, because I don't like to be late, and class started at 11. We have until fifteen minutes past to get there before we are considered "absent." And if we get 4 absences, we fail the class. 

I knew this was a "test" - especially since I checked traffic right before I left. There was really no big problem. So while I was crawling along on the road, half-panicking, I said: "I demand to get to school before 11." I didn't want my panic to create a situation where I was late. 

Well, my demand came through. I ended up at school at 10:57. It took me 5 minutes to soothe my shakiness (panic + half-running through the building to get to class). So that's something I have to work on - managing my demands in anxiety-ridden situations. Keeping my cool. 

So then I find out that I have a lot of work to do in these next two days. I have an illustration project to finish by Thursday (a collage one... I'm about 85% done), a few sketchbook pages to fill before Thursday (also for illustration), and four math assignments to complete before our test - also on Thursday. In fact, I should be working on math right now... but I needed to write this. I'm trying to keep myself composed - taking things easy so that I avoid stress and illness. I'm sure I'll be fine, though.

And the last main event? Had my first invisibility fail today. I actually had a garage fail last week, but I think it was affected by my intense panic (my dad wanted to see how many miles we can get out of Johann-Pierre's tank, so I was driving on the last gallon of gas... not a pleasant thought). This was in math, of course. I was called on. Damn. Even though I asserted that I was "invisible." But what I find interesting is that my usual seat partner was absent today. I had a different seat partner. 

So yeah. I also had a dream this morning where I was a man living in this really big and fancy apartment/loft, but I was afraid that someone would steal my stuff. This is something I have to work on... 

Tomorrow's going to be much better. 

Finny x