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| By Alex Grey |
It's fascinating to me to look back on these past few months and observe how things have progressed in my life. I've been lamenting my lack of connection to the spiritual, but I see clearly why there is a lack to begin with. Right now, my focus is meant to be on the physical. I spent the last few years becoming learned in the ways of spirit so that I could approach my current issues from a greater perspective. Without that spiritual understanding, I wouldn't know why all of this has been going on. I would be much more depressed. I would be angry and bitter and far more frustrated with the world.
I realize this lack of spiritual connection is temporary, and that it will return when I'm ready to utilize it again. For now, though, I have personal issues to work through. In recent times, I've had a number of insecurities surface, and I need time to deal with them before delving into the realms of spirit again.
It's been tough. I won't lie. A lot of this stuff has been repressed over years; I've refused to deal with it all and therefore pretended it didn't exist - that I had already "healed" it with all my spiritual practices. In reality, I just buried it deeper. But then, I faced a trigger, and it all exploded back out at once - on top of the pressure of having to figure out what to do with my life.
To help me figure out a direction, and even give myself insight as to who I am in this life, I decided to pick up Caroline Myss' Sacred Contracts. I finished it a week or two ago, and am now working on the interactive part of the book - figuring out my 12 archetypes and how to use their energies to my advantage.
I did this exercise before, but I'm scrapping those results, as I did not fully understand what went into selecting your personal archetypes. I did not realize that each one of us shares four "survival" archetypes: Prostitute, Victim, Saboteur, and a variation of Child.
So I cast my Archetypal Wheel again - this time, reflecting long and hard on the archetypes... ensuring that their patterns have been present throughout my whole life. This was a little tricky, as I'm still young and haven't had many experiences with which to connect the dots, but I finally settled on the 8 archetypes I feel represent me best. They are:
- House 1 - Ego & Personality: Storyteller
- House 2 - Life Values: Shapeshifter
- House 3 - Self-expression & Siblings: Seeker
- House 4 - Home: Victim
- House 5 - Creativity & Good Fortune: Guide
- House 6 - Occupation & Health: Saboteur
- House 7 - Marriage & Relationships: Hero
- House 8 - Other People's Resources: Wounded Child
- House 9 - Spirituality: Artist
- House 10 - Highest Potential: Lover
- House 11 - Relationship to the World: Prostitute
- House 12 - The Unconscious: Monk
Now, part of the process is getting to know your archetypes, and observing their patterns in your life, as well as how they manifest in Shadow aspect. Since I haven't been all that active with this poor blog, I figured a good way to do this would be to devote one post a day to each archetype. I love typing more than writing by hand, anyway.
Self-exploration awaits...
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