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| "Messiah" - by Rassouli |
As the title suggests, this is going to be another lazy, possibly mediocre Christmas. Part of me was tempted to decorate just so that it felt - well - a little more like Yule, but I just wasn't in the mood to drag out those huge boxes of decorations from the garage just to take them all back down and drag them back into the garage a month later. We don't really do anything exciting anymore, other than eat together and maybe buy each other a few gifts. I think I'd be more motivated to do Yule stuff if I were celebrating it alone. It's hard to do anything distinctly "Yule" with a Christian mother in charge of the family get-togethers. Not that we do anything Christian, either.
Anywho, today's card is drawn for the Festival of Life, answering the question: how can I best connect with spirit? This year, I pulled Wheel of the Year, which has always represented cycles, fulfillment, and a sense of wholeness or completeness to me. However, traditionally, the card represents changing fortunes (or change in the air) as well as making progress... taking steps forward. The traditional meanings don't really resonate well with me, so I'm going to refer to my own interpretations mainly. But what is this card really asking me to do in order to connect with spirit? Simply embrace all these things? I kind of do that already. I seem to understand this card intuitively, though. It encourages me to roll with the cycles. Be in tune with nature. Even budget my time wisely, to some degree. There's a bit more to what I'm feeling, but I understand the message enough to not have to dig around and try to find the words.
I do feel like I'm making solid progress toward connecting with spirit again. I think I'll feel more connected after the New Year - especially after my brother leaves. It's been hard to meditate and work on my intuitive skills and whatnot when I'm holed up in the house with a lonely mother; I keep getting interrupted and visited by her. I'm trying to be optimistic, though, because I know how much it sucks for my mom to not have dad around in person. I hate to think what she'd be like if she were entirely alone in this house. Even though it frustrates me as an introvert seeking solitude and privacy, I'm happy to serve as a bit of company for her.
I had more to say today, but I'll save it for another post. I will say, though, that things are getting smoothed out between Lor and I. I keep getting little relevant messages throughout my day about how relationships are mirrors and whatnot, so that's joined the list of affirmations I find myself repeating in my head all day long.
Happy Christmas to those who celebrate!
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