Walking the Path

"Bodhisattva" - by kairosis @ deviantART

I'm really loving this peace and quiet. I would feel bad for saying that, but I think I'm entitled to my peace and solitude.

Today's draw is for Day of Rest, which helps us determine how we can walk a relaxed and confident path. I drew Beltane, which is so unbelievably perfect for this question. As most of us know, Beltane is the midpoint between spring and summer, and represents the time when the God becomes mature enough to court and unite with the Goddess. Because of this, Beltane can primarily represent a perfect match or happy partnership. It also represents good choices, following your heart, celebration, fertility/creativity, and self-love.

I think most of these meanings are self-explanatory. They all make sense in regard to my situation, as well - even the one about partnership. Isn't that crazy? For years, I've been going on about how I don't need or want a partner. It's so ironic. At the same time, though, I think I expected it. Totally seems like something the universe would do.

So how do I walk a relaxed and confident path? I follow my heart, for starters. I do what makes me happy, even if it seems unrealistic or impractical to most. I make choices that I know in my gut are right, despite anything my fears or rational mind might say. I celebrate moments of triumph, and work determinedly past barriers and obstacles, seeing them as challenges to be overcome. I work creatively from the heart, and focus solely on abundance in all forms. And possibly the most important of all: I learn to love myself. 

Being with Lor has made that last one pretty darn clear. If I don't love myself - if I'm not secure or comfortable with myself - all sorts of things start to go wrong. Fears and insecurities keep me weighed down. Being in a relationship has brought all this to my attention; I've learned so much already, and it's only been a month or so. 

I can't stress self-love enough. For months, I believed I loved myself... but in reality, I only wholly loved certain things, and pretended to love the rest. Pretending won't work. 

So perhaps that can be my main goal for 2014. Self-love. I'll already be working on embracing change and the like, but I think things will work more to my benefit if I'm in a state of self-love. I can also work on all the other things listed here, but self-love is most important. 

I'm worthy of love, and I deserve happiness and abundance.