Funny, because I tried to be more optimistic about him being here. I really did. But it's hard to be optimistic - especially as an introvert - when all you hear is him bragging or lecturing.. almost non-stop. The only way to find peace, it seems, is to put your foot down and make it clear that you're annoyed with him. Of course, he takes incredible offense to this, because I'm sure he believes everyone should be latching on to his every word, but man... that kid loves to hear himself talk.
To make things a little worse, I just found out last night that Lor is away from home for a week and forgot his laptop when he was packing. So now we have to resort to texting only (I can't call him with a nosy mom and brother around), which is more of a hassle, but... better than nothing. So I'm a little sad that I have a lack of him. I'll survive, though. Maybe this is a chance to step back and breathe a little - to reflect on what's been going on between us.
Anyway, today's draw is for Birth of Freyja, so I get to focus on love, luck, creative expression, and female wisdom. I drew Maiden of Fire, which is incredibly relevant, I think. The Maiden of Fire holds a spark of inspiration - the gift of light. She conveys divine inspiration and even something a bit more personal for me: love. As cheesy as it may sound, I feel a lot more light in my life since meeting Lor. I'm generally happier, I'm more motivated/enthusiastic about getting myself out there, and I'm more determined to heal my issues. The Maiden is warm - she's at peace. She feels safe knowing that she has the light to guide her way.
There are a lot of things I've been meaning to blog about, but I think I'll save most of those things for later, when I don't have the brother lurking and pestering.
For now, I should probably tidy up a bit since I have a friend coming over tonight.
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