One of them had me eating lunch or dinner or something with my family (brother included). While we were eating, my brother brought up my psychic art thing to my parents. I felt very anxious about this and I think I tried to change the subject... or maybe I was just trying to explain myself. Not entirely sure.
The other dream had me at home with my mom. She was outside (it felt like evening) feeding the cats, and I was watching her from the back door. I just so happened to look up into this attic-like space that doesn't exist in real life, only to see this little mouse-looking creature up there. I told my mom because it was quite adorable, but she couldn't see it from where she stood. After we fed the cats, we boosted ourselves to take a peek in this attic space, and found these huge bowls (I had the impression of teacups)... the one at front was filled with these little mice and gerbils. Mom petted some of them. I woke up.
Cats and mice, huh? I wonder what area of my life this is referring to.
In other news, I had another stream session yesterday. It was wonderful, like always. Will write about it in my spirit art blog. But as I was thinking about it, and how this spirit art gig is going to earn me money, I became curious. For the longest while, I had been saying that I've done over a hundred art readings. What if it was actually more?
So I looked through my folders and added up all the numbers... and arrived at a big fat 321.
Three hundred readings. Maybe not for three hundred people, but I've done this well over three hundred times. Whoa. I was not aware of how significantly these numbers have increased.
Yet... I still don't feel well-practiced. My sitters always tell me how I'm so accurate, and how I'm a clear channel, but in all honesty, I feel limited. I am limited. Readings are based on my technical drawing skills, too. If I can't draw something, I won't be able to render it, which means (A) I have to omit it or draw something else, or (B) the sitter won't be able to identify the thing being drawn. I really want to bring something to the table with these readings.
Add on the fact that I can't even come up with words or details to match my own paintings. Just yesterday, I was doing a SC portrait for T, and I could not tell her a thing about the guy's interests, activities, etc... I could only tell her that he was in the process of healing, that he was reserved, perhaps blocked, and had experienced quite a bit of pain (although I didn't state this specifically). She had requested that portrait for confirmation, but it wasn't all that confirming.
I just need more practice. There are a few things I'd like to do to get me back into feeling connected... to regain my senses. Unfortunately, the biggest thing is just practicing readings, and that's a tad difficult to incorporate while I'm in school. I'd also like to get back into channeling - with Adonai first since I "hear" it so well. And meditation... yeah. I've said this many times, but I really do need to incorporate meditation into my life.
I still wonder if diet has anything to do with my level of sensitivity... or maybe I just have too many expectations.
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