The Clearing Storm

Things have definitely been on the up lately, despite school masking these tidbits up. The biggest highlight of my morning... well. Remember back in October when I mentioned contacting P&D about their psychic services?

Almost five months later, I finally received a reply.

I have to admit: the timing on this has caught my attention. The lady who replied to me claimed she had missed my email, hence the lack of reply all this time. Somehow I feel that didn't happen on accident. 

I've been thinking back to spirit/psychic art again recently. I never wanted to give it up; I was just focused on other things: my own creative projects and school, to be more specific. This summer, I'd be very much interested in getting more practice in and doing livestreams again.

I was worried that this reply would completely and utterly reject me, but it's actually not all that disappointing. This is what she said:

We are at this time full in our psychic program. We have 4 readers rooms which are shared by 9 practitioners and occasional out of town visitors.

Of course there are always times that psychics lives change and we are then looking for new practitioners. We are looking for people who have professional experience, not just reading for friends. Readers have to read for me and some of the other psychics. We are very team oriented and it needs to be someone that can work within the group.

Probably at this point we are lightest in tarot readers and would be hiring one more of those next.

If you are still interested please send me a write up about your psychic skills and experience.

Naturally, I'm kind of hopeful. But just as I expected: "professional experience." What constitutes as professional experience to these people? Several years of working with hundreds upon hundreds of people? I'm assuming it's something along those lines, considering the types of psychics who work there now.

It's a bit intimidating. Even if I would be the only spirit/psychic artist working there, I just don't feel like I'm remotely experienced compared to these "top dogs." But I just realized something.. at first, when I read through this email, I felt so disappointed because my psychic senses have been so freaking dull lately - with the exception of my intuition, which never shuts down. However, when I actually think about it, my spirit/psychic art skills come so naturally to me that it would hardly be a problem to jump back into this again. 

It's a lovely thought. I think I might send her a reply telling her about my hopes. Before, I'd be too scared to - too afraid of being let down. But nope. I'm going to be adventurous. I'm going to put myself out there, because who knows? Even if they don't accept me now, they may accept me in the future, or even hook me up with another offer that may help hone my skills. 

The only thing is, though... if this goes through, then I really will have to tell my parents exactly what I'm doing. I can't go and make money without telling them. Then again... I don't have to be making money. I'd be perfectly happy taking on a kind of "intern" position, where I'm simply increasing my skill rather than working professionally. 

There are many options. I just think it's kind of funny how she mentioned they're looking for tarot readers first and foremost. And speaking of tarot... My Mary-el deck is in town, so I'm really hoping it comes today because that means I can slip it by my mom without her noticing (she has an appointment in a few hours). 

Huh. That email was quite uplifting, actually. I've been thinking about all the things I'm wanting to do, and adjusting my attitudes on them... like with art and writing. I feel like I'm getting somewhere with a drawing style, although it'll take a lot more work. Still making progress, though. And that feels really good.

I'm grateful.