Working for the Masses

"Princess Light" - by Josephine Wall

I had a realization dropped into my head a couple of days ago, although it was particularly stimulated by a conversation I was having with a couple of ladies in SF chat last night.

But before I get to that, I wanted to mention a few things. One, I partly remember my dream, which involved me catching a big black spider in my closet, and my brother telling my family that there were going to be nasty storms and "side-effects" for the rest of the week. These both relate to daily life, because I recently told a few friends that I have a huge stack of artwork in my closet that's probably infested with little spiders, and I checked the weather last night to hear about a supposed severe outbreak in the midwest or south or something. There was a bit more to this dream, but I've forgotten it now.

Two, I finally got around to practicing my Dream tool. It was very interesting. I first tried it on one of the people on my reading list, and all of my findings were accurate, with the exception of one thing that the sitter couldn't identify on spot. I then tried it on WW, who is one of my guinea pigs for nailing specific details, and was able to give him a reading about his previous past life, which was pretty darn accurate, too. There were a few details that he wasn't able to confirm right away, but he said he'd consult his team and get back to me on that.

Wow. 

The Dream method is a lot more interesting to me than just sitting and waiting for information to come. It gets me involved and allows me to flex my visualization and daydreaming skills (it's totally a skill). In a nutshell, I visualize myself in an etheric form and enter the sitter's "Dream" (a melting pot of images, experiences, sounds, feelings, etc. from his/her existence), which I can relate to a personal world or universe. Sometimes I bring along a guide energy (in WW's PL reading I took Pierre along). I can move between portals that bring me to specific moments or experiences. So yeah, it's pretty fun. I like getting involved in the process. 

I'm hoping to practice a bit more today depending on people who are online and whatnot.

And last, I'm still working on those meditations, but I wanted to mention how amazed I am at my ability to lose focus so quickly. Sometimes I don't even notice at first, because I can do it so subtly. Yes, I'm listening to the sound of a forest stream, and I can hear it, but then my thoughts wander to something related to it, and I don't catch it at first. So I keep having to bring myself back. But I'll get there, dang it!

Now, for the realization. What was that realization? 
I don't need to please the masses.

This whole time, I've been subconsciously convincing myself that I need to be able to be good at all things, so I can increase the number of interested clients (you know, because I want to reassure myself that this will actually bring me profit so I can sustain myself). And this realization hit me big time when I was having a conversation about soul connections and mates and twinflames in chat yesterday. I was telling these ladies that such readings aren't my forte, because I'm not a relationship person and therefore have zero empathy or interest. Unfortunately, questions about love are my most frequent requests, and up until now, I've managed to answer them, but holy crapcakes - it's a very dangerous topic. Say the wrong thing, and... well. You know. People are very passionate about this kind of thing.

I totally understand why I've always felt this way. Like I said above: I need to sustain myself, and I'm afraid that my strong points (self-development, empowerment, etc.) won't interest enough people. And I don't want to end up charging too much just to ensure I make a profit. 

But man, it does me - and others - no good if I'm trying to do something I'm not meant to do. I mean, there's probably a reason why I have no interest in the SCs and TFs and relationship questions. It's not my area! I shouldn't be trying to force myself to do something just for the sake of getting money for it. I need to recognize my strong points and work on those because that's where I'll find my success.

Incidentally, on a similar note, I had a second mini-realization: I've been thinking too much about the profit and skill increase and not so much about the individual. Of course, it's only natural, for the reason listed above, but I think part of my success will be based on my ability to open my heart and read for someone without judgment, without the idea of profit or increasing my skill. Yes, right now I'm trying to work on specifics - that's why I asked for specific guinea pigs who I knew wouldn't really need the "help." But I need to start reminding myself again why it is I'm doing this: to HELP people.

It's okay to think about profit. However, that comes after helping people. And maybe one day, if I find something which can support me enough, I won't have to charge at all (maybe a small bit for traditional works since those actually cost me supply money). 

So that's where I'm at. I'm feeling good about things - more confident. 

Going to see Star Trek early tomorrow morning at IMAX with my padre - hell yes!