Energies of Creation

"Energies of Creation" - by Rassouli

I feel like I've been having so many interesting dreams over these past few days, but when I wake, I don't remember them. I know one had to do with GW - another with preparing a gift for BB. Hm. I guess most of my dreams still aren't important for me to be aware of.

I've begun writing again. Well, world and plot-building, to be more specific. I'm at the point where I've played GW2 enough that I don't have to play it every single minute I find I have free time. I've mellowed out, done a lot of what I can do without getting into the more experienced stuff, and - well - am beginning to find myself interested in writing again. So every day - at least during break - I'm planning to work on a bit of world-building for Crucible, in hopes that I make some progress. I'm approaching it with a different attitude, too. Instead of being in a rush to finish, I'm taking my time and enjoying the process. The adventure. I won't say that I think things will work out this time, because I said that the last time I was working on plot, and once again, things changed.

But that's exactly why Crucible is my dearest project. It's growing and maturing along with me. My other projects have been relatively static, but Crucible keeps changing. 

I have three more days with my godfather, counting today. I admit I'm excited. I feel bad because I can no longer bring myself to play board games with him and mom. But I do miss my introvert time. My privacy. I had to hide my tarot/oracle cards because when he comes in here, he tends to ask about certain things I have, and because he's (A) been raised as a Christian and (B) not that open-minded, I'd rather not have to explain why I'm in possession of several tarot decks to one of my most beloved family members. It's a shame I have to hide a big part of who I am to my family. Maybe one day, they'll understand.

I'm feeling really good lately. The warm weather seems to be settling in for good. Godfather, mom and I have been going on walks - so nice to have some exercise. Inspiration is flowing. And you know... I'm not all that disappointed for a week and a half of break, because I know I only have one quarter - ten more weeks - to plow through before my nice, long, 3-month break. 

While I'm on a similar topic... I found my magic journal a couple days ago. I still practice various affirmations daily (especially those pertaining to travel and car safety), and after reading through it, it makes me want to incorporate it into my lifestyle again. In fact, I was very touched by an entry I made (funnily enough, I don't remember writing it):

 I am connected to all things. Because of this, I have a natural gift which allows me to access knowledge and wisdom in all places. No secret is hidden from me. My senses are sharp. I see the truth in all things. I see the past, present, and future. I am the universe; therefore, I am entitled to this information. I am that which I teach: I am love, compassion, acceptance, balance.

I think it'll come very much in handy, especially since big change has made itself known in the future. It works best, though, when I'm in a meditative state when making an entry. Or, at least, focusing on what's being said. 

I did have other things I wanted to mention, but I'll save them for later. We're heading out to my favorite sushi restaurant in a couple hours and I wanted to get some writing in before then.

Happy Saint Patrick's Day - I don't really care much for it, but maybe others do.