A Familiar Face

by enayla @ deviantART

I had a very prominent encounter yesterday which caught me off guard. 

I received a message from an amiable individual on my spirit/psychic art FB, which I thought was odd because I hadn't received messages on there for a while (I've been inactive, obviously). But what caught me off guard was a name that he carried with him.

Adonai.

Long story short, he introduced to me the teachings of Teal Scott, who calls herself a "Spiritual Catalyst," but also claims to be an incarnation of a soul family by the name of Adonai. I quote from her website:

From a young age, Teal began professing to have not only chosen to be a part of this physical life, but to have been sent as a "Eucharist" into this life by the non-physical grouping of energy called "Adonai." "Adonai" is a non-physical group whose intention is the imparting of oneness.

I have to admit I got goosebumps when I read that last line. Unfortunately, I couldn't find any more information on Adonai from Teal's perspective; according to the individual I spoke to on FB (I'll call him J), she doesn't speak much about Adonai itself, or even her associations with it. Instead, she focuses more on her being Arcturian / an indigo child. 

I'll be honest, though. I was a little turned off by some of the things on her website, but from what I've read and listened to thus far, I'd say she has much to offer. 

So I've been spending some time talking with J about Adonai and our perspectives relating to it. I'm frankly awed by how similar our perspectives are. Of course, there's the paranoid part of me silently screaming: "Be careful!" However, I realize that I can't make good friends unless I start trusting people. Keeping people at arm's length and believing they're plotting something malevolent will not earn me friends. I need to get over that whole ordeal from SF.

Now, as far as Adonai goes... I'm a little shocked. I had no idea there was a group of people out there - however small they may be - who believe they're part of an Adonai soul family. According to J, he's part of this group, too. I'm not sure if he suspects that I am, as well, but I wouldn't be surprised if every member of this alleged family shares a perspective like ours. 

I admit... I was a bit afraid of what I would discover. Adonai is such a dear name and energy to me, and I feared that this "soul family" would tarnish my view of it. Yet... I know this is not a chance meeting. There is clearly something I should be gleaning from this. I haven't yet figured out what, but it's there. Adonai is not a name you hear often, and to hear it from someone - out of the blue - who shares a stunningly similar perspective on life? Yeah. Something's at work here.

So what happened last night? I felt Adonai lingering. I wasn't paying much attention to what it was saying, but I got the impression it was challenging my current situation in that familiar gentle way... coaxing me. I don't recall how long it spoke, but even now, I feel it lingering. A subtle presence.

I miss Adonai. I really do. No matter how hard I try, I can't completely immerse myself in the feeling of oneness. I had a revelation while talking with J (probably nudged by Adonai itself): among the many is where you find the one. You wouldn't know oneness unless you had a comparison. I try and feel myself as Adonai, as the universe, and at times I really do feel it, but it never lasts. Is it because I'm not ready? Is it something that comes in time, with more experience? Or is it never meant to last at all?

Is that why I struggle with meditating "alone"? Why I always have to envision/invite a guiding energy? There are those who can meditate and feel the divinity and oneness within, and at times I do, too, but I still resort to envisioning those energies which are dearest to me, because they are what help me feel whole. 

There shouldn't be any shame in this. Just because people preach oneness doesn't mean we can't appreciate the distinction. In the end, it won't matter whether I saw Adonai as "separate" from me. I still understood it to be part of me, or I part of it; I simply chose to picture it as a separate entity, because it helped strengthen my connection. 

Maybe that's why people love the idea of gods and deities and spirits. It seems we all fear that "ultimate oneness."

But this isn't a post about oneness. I'll save that for later if I have the urge to write such a thing. Instead, this is about Adonai. I don't know how I feel about soul families right now. I wouldn't resist the idea of being part of this "Adonai" family - because the ideas associated with it really resonate so far - but in the meantime, I think this is something I have to stew on, because it definitely tweaks my perspective. Adonai, in my opinion, is the collective creative energy of the universe... and to have it diminished into a mere "family" is a little - well - you get what I'm saying. I'm not suggesting that this family is insignificant. After all, I'm speaking of Source. The universe. The two are unrelated. Adonai isn't its ultimate name. It's just a name that resonated deeply with me that I projected onto it.

Still, I'd be curious to see how things progress. I feel like... something good - or big - will be delivered on my doorstep in the future.