The White Temple

So for the past couple nights, I've been visiting my own Dream to see what I can dig up. Interestingly enough, both times, I've felt "limited" - as though there's only a fixed number of spaces I can go right now. That's just as well, because I don't want to feel overwhelmed, and there's probably a reason I'm not supposed to be exploring stuff anyway. I considered visiting Eron to see if I could scrape up more details on Zenoheria, but I was drawn instead to a white temple, in which the personification of Andromeda dwells. 
It was interesting - Andromeda took a different form between these two nights. The first night, it resembled the guise I often put Adonai in when I believed in an "original Source." Draped in gold, long, dark hair, golden eyes... but last night, it took an almost opposite form: short white hair, draped in white, lavender eyes. And this time, it embraced me. I tried talking to it, asking it questions, but I felt it was inappropriate, and that I didn't need to... so I just let it embrace me. It was such a lovely moment. 

I expected Andromeda to change forms, but not overnight. I'm curious to see what it does in tonight's visit. 

Speaking of the Dream tool, I find it's working pretty well. I've been using it when I can, and even visited a Dream based around another world (the guy was curious about his exoplanetary lives), which was freaking beautiful. I did have to drop a list of readings recently, though, because my energy's being directed toward my writing first and foremost. I'm trying to make the most of my time before I'm forced to the "plan" my dad and I come up with.

While I'm mentioning padre... the whole overseas thing is still up in the air. For all we know, he might not be leaving at all, especially since his mentor has him possibly working another job in another city. I'm kind of antsy, because I'm half-hoping they will leave. I keep thinking about all the things I'd be able to do without my parents there to judge or question or interrupt me (mainly my readings / medi sessions... ugh). But then I think about all the stuff I'm going to be left to do on my own and I think "No rush..." 

My dad keeps saying I can't spend my life behind a computer, but I don't think he understands me when I say I want to go and get involved in groups and related activities. And now, if he does end up staying while I'm off from school, I'm going to have to fight him for Hans. I don't know if he would let me drive Hans if I told him I had groups and stuff I wanted to go to, and I'm sure as heck not driving Haloa until she has working brake lights. So.. yeah. I'm curious to see what his so-called "plan" is going to consist of.

In other words, I'm still in that limbo. Waiting to hear my fate, I guess. That's why I'm trying to make as much progress on my novel as I can. I want to be able to finish it and have it published during my year off... and if my dad tries to impede by forcing me to work... well, you know the rest. I still have other projects to work on, including that children's book for L and book cover for R. Hm.

It'll work out.