Procrastination

"Materia - Air" - by Patricia Ariel

I need to be working on my last few storyboards, but I need to jot this stuff down before I forget.             

I'll first mention that my Mythic Oracle deck arrived today. They're pretty nifty. Nice illustrations (I loooove the ones for Apollo, Helios, and Orpheus), but a skim deck. Only 45 cards, so I think I'll use them as "guide" type cards or for more general topics... like "whose energy should you call on today" kind of thing. I don't know why they only included 45 cards, since many oracle decks have about 60-70. And there are hundreds of characters in Greek mythology. 

The skimness is really my only complaint. So yeah. I'll be using these four decks in the meantime until I come across some others that are fabulous. I've been using Psychic Tarot for most of my readings for the peeps at SF, so that one responds best to my energy right now. The only problem I'm having with these decks is that because of their material and the way they're manufactured, they split easily into "sections," and it's a little annoying for the way I draw cards. Sometimes I wonder if it's a genuine pick, but I'm still technically selecting them based on intuition. Hmm...

On another note, yesterday was our first below-40 degree day thanks to Frankenstorm Sandy (for my out-of-country readers, that's about 4 degrees). Sandy helped bring in a cold front, along with some seriously gusty winds. I got to wear a scarf for the first time this season, but I tried to actually enjoy the cold. It was only tolerable because the sun was shining, though.

Nanowrimo starts on Thursday, and I'm a teensy bit frustrated because I'll still have 2.5 weeks of school and final projects to blast through before being able to fully focus on my writing. But hey. I'll reach those 50,000 words, even if I have no idea where this story is going to go.
And speaking of Thursday, I'm still debating what I want to do for Halloween/Samhain. I was thinking about going to P&D for their night of divination, but that's an activity that runs 8-10 PM and I do have school the following day. I was thinking about just staying indoors and watching a Supernatural marathon in the dark like I did last year, but I kinda want to do something more Samhain-y or Halloween-y this year. Maybe if I'm not too busy I'll do some readings with the assistance of some lovely entities (since the veil IS thinnest then... hahaha). 

I was a little disappointed to have a garage fail today. It's not a big deal; the only reason I'm disappointed is because this demand wasn't halfhearted. I really put my effort into this manifestation last night when I was winding down with Luci (although I didn't really do it this morning like I usually do). I'm not sure if that's the actual reason it didn't work... but I would think it would, because I was very passionate about it.

So now I wonder if there's something more to this whole manifestation thing - like areas of life we can't control. I used to believe that before, but then I got smacked with ultra-creator-confidence. It does make some sense based on the conversations I've been having with Adonai. If life went 100% according to your plan, then there would be no room for any kind of growth. It's through some kind of pain or suffering that we are able to expand into something greater. I mean, I'm obviously not in pain for having to park on the second level of the parking deck, but it does make me wonder... does this "no-go" approach apply to every aspect of life? 

It's definitely something I need to talk with Adonai about. 

A last tidbit before I go and do storyboarding homework: I stumbled across a wonderful pianist named Brian Crain yesterday. "Fire" was the first song I heard from him, and it reminded me of Luci. If you guys dig relaxed/emotional piano pieces, go check him out. He makes some awesome stuff. Here's "Fire:"

Finny   

Odyssey

"Leading the Way" - by Nanette55 @ deviantART

I received a nudge today. I felt very inclined to ditch my original Tumblr account (I didn't post anything myself and only kept an eye on, like, 9 blogs) and make another one that would serve as the Tumblr counterpart of VotS. I then sat down for an hour or two and searched through tags for blogs that I knew I would enjoy. Most of them are Pagan/Wiccan blogs (they post a lot of cool and interesting stuff). But I also figured that I would start posting my own material, as well, as another way to draw attention to VotS and even Eyes of Adonai... eventually.

I believe this "nudge" was in response to my two recent demands: 1.) to attract higher-vibe friends, and 2.) to network with people of similar interests. Plus, this is a good way to allow me to learn about what I'm now interested in... and discover some cool tidbits along the way. The only problem is that the more blogs I follow, the more content I'll have to sift through... so a lot of time is lost. But I think I'll manage. I've been feeling hungry for new info, new perspectives. I've even been drawn to watch more nature documentaries and such as of late, because I enjoy observing the "spirit" behind the "science" (or "history"). 

I'm also leaning back toward meditation at this time. God. There's so much I want to do, but thanks to school, I have no time to do it all. I still have 24 days of class to sit through before I can take a month and a half off to explore all this stuff in depth. 
As for meditation, though... yeah. I read about four main "methods" of meditation: 1.) Zen, where you focus on a particular "object" through seated positions and breathing techniques; 2.) Mindfulness, where you focus on the present moment; 3.) Qigong, which utilizes breathing, hand movements, and physical exercises to clear the mind, and 4.) Mantra, which is self-explanatory, but also utilizes a mala to help keep track of the mantra repetitions.

That last one caught my attention, because a lovely member from SF gifted me a couple of malas (one standard one and one small "bracelet") in return for a spirit portrait a while back. I used to wear them because they gave off such wonderful energy, but I never used them properly because I never meditated with mantras before. I'm thinking I should probably utilize them - or at least the standard quartz one! 

It's starting to get cooler here. In fact, today was a good first chilly day of the season. As my dad says: "Georgia has two seasons: hot and cold." It's pretty much true. We have only a handful of "perfect" days during spring and autumn. But like I mentioned sometime earlier... I'm going to try and enjoy the cold this year. It sucks because I have no meat on this little skin, and on top of that, bad circulation, so the cold is just generally uncomfortable for me. I'll try, though. Especially since cold is invigorating for the body (like the ishnan showers). 

Other than that, I've been feeling very crafty and productive. It's kind of irritating because school occupies my time, but I'm trying to enjoy school while I can, since I'll only be here for a few years. So I have to shove those feelings in the background for now and focus on my work. I do admit I have a little pet peeve when it comes to my dad; every day he'll ask me: "Were you productive today?" or "What did you get done today?".. even though he KNOWS I'm the "responsible one" who maintains an A/B average through all her classes. It's just a tad insulting, so when I asked him why he keeps repeating this question, he said: "I need to know that my money's being spent properly." 

I find that awfully hypocritical, considering my dad is the biggest spender in the house. He'll buy all sorts of things that he'll only use for a month or two before growing tired of them or discarding them. Hell, he just spent $16 on a pair of tweezers only to end up breaking them.

But I digress. 

Finny x