Annual Overview

Today was a slow day. The weather didn't help much, either - it's the kind of weather in which you're supposed to curl up inside behind a book or film or some writing/art... but at least it's over now. Six days left.

Referring to the thing about manifestation I said this morning - it happened again. I demanded the garage door be up, and when I got there, it was down. But guess what?

There was a spot available on the second level that was right next to the freaking entrance.

There's never a spot available near the entrance on the upper floors... not at 10 AM. So that's exactly what I mean. The universe "denies" my original request and gives me something better. 

That makes me happy.

In other news... we find out who the president is in a few hours. I know voting in my area ends at 7 PM. It's currently 5:30. I forget when they actually show the results. But I felt kind of... I don't know. It's just that practically all my classmates voted today, and when I was asked why I didn't vote, I couldn't really give a good answer. I just told them that if I did vote, it would just come down to me picking who's more tolerable. 

And I mean - I like Obama. I really do. He has a lot better vibes than Romney, but when it comes down to it, Obama's still a politician, and for the life of me, I can't think too highly of someone who sits down and decides, "I'm going to rule the free world" - unless they're seriously, genuinely trying to make the world a better place. Back in 2008, I was a bit more naive. I was all excited for Obama because he was a big step up from Bush, and I was happy to see someone who wasn't an old Republican white guy taking charge of things for once. Now, however, I realize that there's a lot more to the book than its cover.

Meh. I'll just be glad when this is over. I've been quite indifferent toward politics all my life, so I just don't see the point. Although I'll be disappointed in America if it chooses Romney, life will just go on. And who knows? Maybe if Romney is elected, it'll stir up a crapload of rebellion, and people will begin pursuing the truth.

Anyway. I decided to do another annual reading for myself for 2013 using my Psychic Tarot and Mythic oracle decks. So let's see...

The rest of 2012
Disruption. Oh, that's lovely. Makes sense. Then again, I wonder if this means I'm going to "sectionalize" myself or will hold myself back... because I don't see much "disruption" happening unless it's all energetic/spiritual (I'm going to be at home most of the time). I guess I'll see.

January
Balance and Thanatos. So balance... but change at the same time? Thanatos I can understand well, because he's representing renewal or transformation here. Moving into a new state of being or new cycle. As for balance, I can't say if this is going to be a goal or an external state. 

February 
Heartache & Loss and Hermes. I've never seen the former in a reading before. Huh. I do admit this is a tad concerning. Then again, this is a mental card, so "loss" can pretty much apply to anything I may be mentally attached to. That should be interesting. As for Hermes... he seems to be communicating movement more than "messages." "Messages" is a pretty general idea. So I'll go with movement. 

March
Discontent & Boredom, and Hestia. My birth month... this is kind of disappointing. I do tend to get bored a lot, so I do wonder what this will pertain to. As for Hestia, she's comforting to see, because she stands for home and hearth. Then again, she carries fire, and to me, that's communicating passion or spirit, like enthusiasm. Interesting.

April
Spiritual Union and Themis. Errr wow. That first one. That caught me off guard, because that's a very "romantic" card. Then again, it doesn't have to indicate only romance. Spiritual union can relate to my sense of unity with others and the world. But it'll be emphasized this month, along with Themis, who's associated with natural order. This month is chock full of more balance.

May
Emotional Withdrawal and Persephone. Spending some time to look inward this month, but Persephone's indicating an awakening of sorts. Me likey. Perhaps that awakening will cause the emotional withdrawal. 

June
Wisdom and Achilles. Wow. This pairing indicates movement toward one of my dreams/desires. Sharing wisdom and being recognized for it... that's what June's saying to me. Cool beans. (More fire symbolism by the way)

July
Sacrifice and Uranus. Yeah, that first card isn't terribly happy (the illustration makes it seem brighter though). I find it interesting how Uranus plays into this one, though, since he represents "Father." I wonder if this will relate to my dad, then?  

August
Choose Wisely and Bellerophon. Choices to make, huh... That's always fun. And an emphasis on humility. Seems like August may be a big month as far as chasing heart's desires go. Oh, jeez. I hope it's not a repeat of October...

September
Emotional Loss and Artemis. Wow. 2013 is quite the emotional year for me, apparently. And loss. Second time. Although the card associates Artemis with purity, I personally associate her with the hunt. Striking a target. 

October
Temptation and Cronus. Interesting mix. Cronus here represents cycles... so I wonder how temptation will play into this. New cycles - could that have anything to do with the previous month?

November
Destiny and Odysseus. An emphasis on JOURNEY and DESTINY. How so very interesting. It's like I'm seeing a new path here... over these past few months.

December 
Stand Your Ground and Ares. Hahaha. What a perfect duo. Lots of battle going on this month. I get the feeling this may have to do with my ambitions... doing what my parents want versus what I want. Again. Oh dear...

Significator (Overall Theme)
Solitude and Gaia. Spending time on my own... self-exploring. An emphasis on feminine/motherly OR nature. Hm. 

Now for the numerology... 1, 2, and 5 came up the most (mainly 2). 1 indicates leadership, beginnings, self, courage, and willpower (appropriate). 2 indicates balance, duality, partnership, choices, reflection, and diversity (also appropriate). And 5 indicates change, uncertainty, realignment, freedom, and travel (also appropriate). 

Ugh. That last one reminds me of Spike/Shiva... 5 is his number. 

Well, as far as growth goes, 2013 is looking good. I should be well-prepared for this "loss," at least. 

Now I'm off to watch Half-Blood Prince. 

Evaah  

  





 

Immovable Himalayas

Cold and rainy today.

Pulled Andras card - he represents conflict. I'm not sure to what conflict this may be referring to, because I feel relatively strife-free these days. So I asked Gita to shed some light on this, and got Immovable Himalayas. Hmm. Maybe this will make sense later. 

I'm pretty excited because I'm about to receive a commission from one of my good high school buddies. I commissioned her back in August, but she's also in art school as an illustration major (she's a year older than me), so she's been pretty busy. But last night, she told me she would soon have it finished. I'm freaking psyched, because I'm a huge fan of her work.

I had an interesting thought a week or so ago about not all manifestations coming through. Mainly, I'm talking about my garage door fails, because that's the only manifestation that hasn't come through 100%. But a week ago the thought came to me that perhaps there's a specific reason for such "failure." 

What if some manifestations "fail" if they're not in our best interest, or if there's a factor that may influence the outcome? For example - the garage door at school. What if I put all my energy into putting that door up so I can park on the lower level, but the universe decides against letting that come through because it knows my parking on the lower level isn't in my best interest for whatever reason? Maybe it knows that there will be someone mysterious down there (because it IS the bottom level... not many people park down there), or someone who's interested in Johann-Pierre, or someone who may back into Johann-Pierre (because one of my other desires is that the car is safe and out of "sight"). So maybe... maybe there's a conflict between manifestations? 

But you know what that would mean if it were true? There's a degree of pre-programming going on. I did say before that I resonated with half pre-programming, half free will. Balance. So yeah, this idea makes sense to me. I can't think of any other reason why my manifestations wouldn't be pulling through. So maybe when it comes to some manifestations, the universe sees a conflict, and chooses the better of the two. And of course, I have to remind people here: I'm not bothered if I have to park on the upper levels. Lol. In fact, the upper levels are good because there's more activity up there. 

This all ties into the "everything is connected" concept. Because when you think about all the decisions that people are making around you... they're creating their realities and somehow that is aligning beautifully and perfectly with your own. They all come to a happy medium. So perhaps that balance/sacrifice is needed, because some people's decisions will influence your reality, and in order for the universe to give you want you want, those sacrifices will give you the overall better outcome.

I'm assuming this ties into all manifestations - not just the tiny ones... in which case I now understand why people are always saying "trust in the universe." Because what may look like a defeat or rejection at first is only paving the way for something better. Keeping my car safe and secure is, in the long run, a lot better of an outcome than temporarily parking on the lower level and having someone break into/crash into/steal it. 

On a somewhat similar note... I'm feeling so connected lately. I have this excited energy building up around me - I feel like change is coming. Big change. I know it's not surprising for this time of year, but I wonder if it has to do with all the global energies. It reminds me of Jennifer Hoffman's 2012 predictions, which I mentioned a few times back at SF. According to her, late October to the end of November will be the fifth "power period" (energetic shift or alignment of some sort) of the year, and will probably be known as "The Time the World Changed." People demanding the truth and whatnot. And with today being Election Day, well... that's probably a big contributor. And for those who are curious - no, I'm not voting. When I was talking to my brother yesterday (he's voting because he's in the military and claims he doesn't want his commander-in-chief to be a "pretentious douchebag"), I realized that I couldn't come up with a solid excuse for not voting. I was just never interested. I'm not like the Americans who say "my vote won't count." I just... I never had the interest. Never felt like I should, because politics are way above me, and when it comes down to it, I'd just vote for the guy who I think is more tolerable of the two. And maybe that's a reason to vote - I don't know. 

Tonight should be interesting...

Evaah