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| by madhoshi @ deviantART |
"We are what we think. All that we are arises with our thoughts. With our thoughts, we make our world."
I've also been seeing other relevant ones, such as:
- "Your work is to discover your world, and then with all your heart give yourself to it."
- "The secret of health for both mind and body is not to mourn for the past, worry for the future, or anticipate troubles, but to live in the present moment wisely and earnestly."
- "No matter how hard the past, you can always begin again."
- "Happiness comes when your work and words are of benefit to yourself and others."
- "The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed."
So yeah. Those are some pretty empowering words for me. They give me even more confidence - especially that last one, because it's fear that's holding me back. I mainly fear one thing: getting my parents to understand. Of course I worry just a bit about being able to sustain myself, but you know what? I can pump up the confidence and self-assurance to manifest abundance for myself.
I just don't know how to bring this up to my dad. Because I know the moment I do, he's going to be all: "WHAT?" or "Are you kidding me?" There's a part of me that hopes he might actually understand. It just sucks, because my parents have a very inaccurate image of me. I have to be my old self around them, because for some reason, they refuse to see anyone else but her. They associate "me" with bitterness, introversion, sarcasm, and spite. So when I act "out of character," I just end up mocked, as if my true behavior is a joke or a false act.
Because they have an inaccurate image of me, it'll make it quite difficult to explain why I want to venture down this path. My parents obviously don't know about my beliefs, so they don't understand why I want to do what I want to do. And of course they're very practical. They'll do everything in their power to try and convince me to stay in school. I'm actually thinking about merely asking for a few quarters off so I can see if I still want to ditch school after a while. That would mean I'd have to work, of course, but that's not a big deal.
Especially since I made a first step toward my dreams several minutes ago. I gathered up the courage to ask that favorite spiritual shop of mine how one goes about working as someone who offers services... so we'll see what they have to say. I was going to mention my being a spirit/psychic artist, but I didn't want to sound egotistical, especially when I don't have as much experience as all the other "professionals" working there (you know... the ones who've had 10+ years of experience or who've worked under certain teachers for a while). I don't know how many interested psychics they get wanting to work there, so I hope I don't get rejected too early. In fact, I'm not even sure what those psychics are like. I get good vibes from most of them (from what I can pick up from their photos), so it might be cool to work alongside them. Maybe they can even teach me a few things.
If they seem interested in me, then I'll probably be assertive and approach my dad. I'm going to manifest my ideal result, so... wish me luck.
Finny x
